I miss having a best friend around all the time. I miss staying up all night and having that person I could call if I was in trouble. I miss planning for our future together once I graduated. I miss having someone I could tell every little detail of my thoughts to and vise versa. I miss not ever feeling lonely because you were there. I miss your parents house and your trampoline and playing mario kart all night. I miss going to our spot in palmer park and just talking about our lives. I miss watching you bawl to fox and the hound, I miss going around the round about 14 times for my 14th birthday, and same for my 15th and so on. I miss you. Fuck.

I miss being included in someones life like that, all I’ve ever wanted for the past three years is a friendship like that back. I can’t fucking find it and never will. Ever since we’ve been apart I’ve been so fucking lonely, trying everything to fill up the space in my heart that is empty, but I just can’t.

I just want to get the fuck out of here and never have to see any of you people ever again.